After I came home tonight, somewhat drunk, after a night of carousing with R, I repeatedly asked M if he loved me.
He politely turned it around and asked if I loved him.
Fair enough.
I've been pretty lazy on a lot of fronts of late. I need to eat better, exercise more, drink less and a bunch of other stuff. I haven't really been doing any of those things to any great extent.
You can't put a minimal effort into something and expect amazing results.
And so. I shall re-commit to the process.
Sometimes I think back to the hell that we went through in October. I remember Michael looking at me in the hallway and saying "you broke my heart" and when he said that it broke my heart. How could I have done what I did?
And yet somehow we worked through it. The love that we have is absurd.
I am so grateful to have the love that I have in my life. I couldn't ask for anything more, anything better, anything anything.
Insofar as relationships are concerned, I am not wanting. I am ecstatic. I am grateful. I am in love and I am happy.
I will work on bringing the other outlying issues in line.
Don't go getting all fat and lazy. You are my inspiration of sorts. I'm up to walking 4 miles a day in an hour. I did 5 today just for the hell of it, and that after playing pool till 11 and drinking 3 shots of Crown last night.
ReplyDeleteAs your fellow carouser, I approve of this post (and I esp. approve of any video with Will Ferrell being a goofball).
ReplyDeleteI won't go getting all fat and lazy. Well, at least not right away...
ReplyDeleteI balanced the carousing out with a nice swim today. :)